Something about trust.

Once upon a time, I was broken badly. And I thought I could never completely trust anyone again. I thought it's irrational. I thought it would be stupid to do so. I thought so, and there were people who told me so.

Turns out, after 2 years, I'm doing exactly the same thing. Trusting someone wholeheartedly.

Might be the same thing on the surface, but actually it's different. At least to me.

The difference is, the first time, I didn't know about the risk. I was naive, I was clueless, totally unaware of the cost, the pain, the price I would have to pay once my trust get shattered. That's why I wasn't scared. Because I didn't know, that I'm supposed to be scared.

This time, I know. I know perfectly well what would happen if I get broken again. But I still do it. I consciously take the risk.

So, to me, trust is not simply following someone without any idea where you are heading to. It's even more than that. It's about knowing exactly that you are about to throw yourself off that cliff, yet still doing it, believing that someone will catch you.

And even if for some reason the person is not able to catch me, well, I know it's the choice I made.
And I realize what trust is about. You make a choice to trust, and you are the only one who's responsible for its consequence, whatever it is.