i'm kinda scared

Fear is a manipulative emotion that can trick us into living a boring life.
Donald Miller

We let fear influence our decisions much more than we dare to admit. I'm kinda disappointed at myself. Do you feel the same if you know I'm not so brave? Not so strong? If you know I'm just another coward?

Will I ever feel passionate about anything at all?

I suppose I do have one unembarrassed passion. I want to know what it feels like to care about something passionately. (Adaptation - 2002)

I do want to know. How does it feel?

There are too many ideas and things and people. Too many directions to go. I was starting to believe the reason it matters to care passionately about something, is that it whittles the world down to a more manageable size. (Adaptation -2002)

"A more manageable size"

A more focused world.

A direction.

Not everyone is so lucky. I envy you...

I'm so lost. In the middle of things. When did I start to feel this way?