You used to complain that, although you said you miss me quite a lot of times, I only said that to you once. Well, sometimes I'm really careful with my words. Sometimes I want to say sth and mean it wholeheartedly, I want to say sth and feel it deeply, so much that it's the only thing filling my heart. So much that the feeling is "almost undeniable. It was crystal clear. As if it was written on some big screen flashing right in front of me with black font on white background, with font size at 142pt and I couldn't turn my face anywhere else."
There, that kind of feeling.
And you know what, today I went cycling at ECP today, and it reminded me of you.
And I want to say this to you "I miss you a lot" :D
2. I think one of the reasons why I'm afraid to get close to people is that I don't want ppl to be worried about me...
I don't want to become anyone's burden.
3. Looking at all the upcoming stuffs...
- Wushu next week: learning sword
- Outing next weekend (TBC)
- Dinner with my cousin next weekend (TBC)
- Wushu camp next next weekend (erm. No excuse this time :|)
- Haagen Dazs with Hui Jun next next next weekend (yay! I mean, I dont care whether we can split or not, it is freaking Haagen Dazs that I'm talking about! XD)
Exciting huh?
4. When you said that you felt lonely, I could understand. But when you said that you felt like your existence didn't matter, it was totally unexpected to me.
Maybe it's because I've always thought of you as a more "secure" person. Confident and self-assured. But then I realized that sometimes it's just not easy. Just like that song "Superman", right? And I know, you are not even Superman. None of us are, anw.
But also, another reason for my surprise was that it's so NOT true to me. I found it so obvious, so clearly apparent that your existence does matter, and how come you couldn't see it?!
That's why I was so surprised.
Anw, jia you :)
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