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*written yesterday, but well... you should know how stupid my home network is...*

1. Every once in a while, on a day like today (ya... rainy days almost always manage to make me feel down), things won't turn out quite right for me. Everything would slip out of its place a little bit.

The files weren't finalized coz of some stupid small details that I missed out, the bank account was disabled because I keyed in the wrong PIN 3 times, one bus took too long to come, another bus passed me by because it was too full, the queue at Shop n Save got frighteningly long, I ordered a new dish for a change and found it totally the kind of thing I would hate: disgustingly oily and piercingly spicy (I felt my guts burned up).

And when I walked home alone under the mild rain, I don't know why I started feeling small and miserable and self-pity (blame the weather, blame the weather!).

In times like this, I would start thinking of how it would feel to have a home to go back to, with someone inside waiting for you...

Sometimes I would need to feel that I DO matter.
Nvm, I guess I do. Just not that I'm aware of maybe? Jeez, okay forget it, it's not even a big deal anw :))

And one more thing. How can I ask to be an important someone in anyone's life, when I can't answer whether you are that important to me?

Haha, I start to think that maybe the rainwater must have some kind of chemicals that just won't work with the chemistry of my body/brain/blood/whatever that determines my mood.

The best thing is that even in my lowest point, I always know it would eventually go up again, and hence no point making a fuss.

Peace, everyone.

2. Tien Eu, thank you, I appreciate that.
And I'm sorry that I couldn't join the game despite what you did.

Then I realize that I was too ignorant. I unconsciously did what I hate ppl to do to me: making assumptions even though I didn't know enough. Too subjective.

But I'm glad you made me realize that :)

3. Erm. Just random. Listening to music, and it's coming to the song "Uniquely you".