So, Linh is gonna stay in Singapore for 10days before coming back to Vietnam permanently.
She said she was surprised to see that I changed a lot after just 1 month not seeing me.
Well, guess that's what happens when u are the only girl in the house where everyone just keeps picking on you. I became much more defensive. I became much more reckless, had more of that "I don't care wth u'r saying" or "I don't have to justify what I do, it's irrelevant to you".
Less "giết kiến", definitely. Less easy-going. Less cheerful. No more doubting myself because of what they say. Less paying attention to what they may think/say about me.
This is quite disturbing. I hate that. Okay, maybe I chose to be that way, maybe I wanted to be like that. Oh well, am I trying to explain myself again?
Being nice all the time with everyone is tiring.
Jan 31, 2010
Jan 30, 2010
b-(
1. Missed the year end party at Vietnam Consulate General :(( Xukiiiiiiiiii, u'r so gonna die X( how come u didn't tell me :(( huhuhuhuhu
2. Office is gonna move to Engin on Feb 22nd. I don't really like to move. I don't want to leave the dear pantry. And also have one more reason.
I should print out a map of Engin and carry with me all the time. Got lost there for don't know how many times already. The way they numbered the floor just doesn't make sense T_T how come the ground floor is actually 6th floor? and 5th floor, at the same time?
Errr... I hate to be blurred okayyyyyyyyy? :(
2. Office is gonna move to Engin on Feb 22nd. I don't really like to move. I don't want to leave the dear pantry. And also have one more reason.
I should print out a map of Engin and carry with me all the time. Got lost there for don't know how many times already. The way they numbered the floor just doesn't make sense T_T how come the ground floor is actually 6th floor? and 5th floor, at the same time?
Errr... I hate to be blurred okayyyyyyyyy? :(
Being half conscious @_@
1. I'm not disappointed. Really, I'm not. I'm just... well, somehow a bit sad.
But I won't be too upset about that.
Maybe... it's time to make up my mind?
Nah, sorry, still cannot do it =P Still unable to let go completely, coz I'm still confused about everything, not excluding my own feelings.
Yet there's one thing I know for sure: both of you are great people =) and I like u two a lot =)
2. Hui Jun didn't come to training today. So sad =(
I had to take 963 alone =( you pangseh me hah... (learnt this word from her XD)
3. I managed to learn the whole 3-section routine for sword from Jia Hao, yay! :D (I dont really know how to spell his name, well).
At first it was only me learning. But then Yeow Seong joined, asking me to teach him :)) Then Chee Seong joined. Then Li Min also joined. They all didn't remember the 1st part and I actually 'taught' them XD Chee Seong said "Woa, Thao is coaching, cool!". It was so fun, haha!
And I know that all these made me happy. All these kept me going, kept me strong against all the weak moments, against my own complicated self.
And I know that this kind of happiness, I have control over. I myself can create it. It's modest, yet patient and always there for me, every time I need it.
And I know that I will never have to be afraid to lose it. No one can ever take it away from me.
It's just so within my reach.
Just so unlike you.
4.
5. Got replies from Oz team mates. Although there are still a lot of things to be done, this is the start. Everything needs a start, for how can u ever do anything without beginning?
6. Still have to wait for my hair to dry. So damn sleepy I have no idea how I can think and type. Maybe I'm not thinking at all?
Being half conscious @_@
But I won't be too upset about that.
Maybe... it's time to make up my mind?
Nah, sorry, still cannot do it =P Still unable to let go completely, coz I'm still confused about everything, not excluding my own feelings.
Yet there's one thing I know for sure: both of you are great people =) and I like u two a lot =)
2. Hui Jun didn't come to training today. So sad =(
I had to take 963 alone =( you pangseh me hah... (learnt this word from her XD)
3. I managed to learn the whole 3-section routine for sword from Jia Hao, yay! :D (I dont really know how to spell his name, well).
At first it was only me learning. But then Yeow Seong joined, asking me to teach him :)) Then Chee Seong joined. Then Li Min also joined. They all didn't remember the 1st part and I actually 'taught' them XD Chee Seong said "Woa, Thao is coaching, cool!". It was so fun, haha!
And I know that all these made me happy. All these kept me going, kept me strong against all the weak moments, against my own complicated self.
And I know that this kind of happiness, I have control over. I myself can create it. It's modest, yet patient and always there for me, every time I need it.
And I know that I will never have to be afraid to lose it. No one can ever take it away from me.
It's just so within my reach.
Just so unlike you.
4.
Chee Seong: they said my face look like I sell porridge :|
Rim: huh? @___@ selling porridge also have typical face?
Rim: how about me? what would I sell, with this face? :|
Chee Seong: Bread loh =))
Rim: errr =,= (I would prefer cookies...)
5. Got replies from Oz team mates. Although there are still a lot of things to be done, this is the start. Everything needs a start, for how can u ever do anything without beginning?
6. Still have to wait for my hair to dry. So damn sleepy I have no idea how I can think and type. Maybe I'm not thinking at all?
Being half conscious @_@
Jan 28, 2010
:D
1. After a long time being seriously sick and extremely unreliable, my Acer laptop died last night, the same time as the release of iPad. Could it be possible that it reincarnate into the iPad?
Because that might be the explanation for why the iPad is nowhere near my expectation =,= I thought it would be a tabletttttt ;( I don't think it can replace a laptop ;'( I don't even think it's a bigger version of iPhone, but more like a bigger iPod touch (it can't make calls, ppl!)
ay yo, what should I buy now?
2. Reached to the 2nd part of Blink, well, the book is more believable and makes more sense now. If not because I need to lend it to Ah Piao, maybe I won't be able to finish it, just because of my prejudice of the 1st part. Maybe I'm not as open minded as I thought. Too much doubt makes me unable to judge the book fairly and objectively.
But still having a hard time finishing it. I freaking hate the way the author drags his stories. If I want to read stories, I would read fictions @__@ this kind of book, I prefer it to be more efficient, straight forward, to-the-point. It's just sooo frustrating when I have to keep reading and wondering "what's your point? What's your point??? what exactly do you want to say to me? Please make it quickkkkkkkkk."
I'm not too patient, I know :|
3. I asked anh Tuan whether he could give me a ride to school, only on Mon, Tue and Fri's morning. He made that face and said sth like "cho`i, sao anh nho' duoc" blah blah.
I just shrugged. Never mind.
I know he didn't mean anything, and he's nice enough. I just don't really want to be too dependent on anything. When you rely on sth too much, you lose your freedom. And what if one day you lose the very thing that you need so much? Nothing is certain in this world, you know?
4. I know you are sad.
But then, what can we do? This kind of things happen all the time.
I won't tell you not to be sad. Well, that's impossible anyway.
But I can suggest some way to make you be... less sad, I guess?
Talk to u later.
5. Sometimes I can be quite rational. I know it sounds strange ie. unlike me, but I've just realized that I'm NOT always emo as I thought.
Part of growing up, I suppose?
Because that might be the explanation for why the iPad is nowhere near my expectation =,= I thought it would be a tabletttttt ;( I don't think it can replace a laptop ;'( I don't even think it's a bigger version of iPhone, but more like a bigger iPod touch (it can't make calls, ppl!)
ay yo, what should I buy now?
2. Reached to the 2nd part of Blink, well, the book is more believable and makes more sense now. If not because I need to lend it to Ah Piao, maybe I won't be able to finish it, just because of my prejudice of the 1st part. Maybe I'm not as open minded as I thought. Too much doubt makes me unable to judge the book fairly and objectively.
But still having a hard time finishing it. I freaking hate the way the author drags his stories. If I want to read stories, I would read fictions @__@ this kind of book, I prefer it to be more efficient, straight forward, to-the-point. It's just sooo frustrating when I have to keep reading and wondering "what's your point? What's your point??? what exactly do you want to say to me? Please make it quickkkkkkkkk."
I'm not too patient, I know :|
3. I asked anh Tuan whether he could give me a ride to school, only on Mon, Tue and Fri's morning. He made that face and said sth like "cho`i, sao anh nho' duoc" blah blah.
I just shrugged. Never mind.
I know he didn't mean anything, and he's nice enough. I just don't really want to be too dependent on anything. When you rely on sth too much, you lose your freedom. And what if one day you lose the very thing that you need so much? Nothing is certain in this world, you know?
4. I know you are sad.
But then, what can we do? This kind of things happen all the time.
I won't tell you not to be sad. Well, that's impossible anyway.
But I can suggest some way to make you be... less sad, I guess?
Talk to u later.
5. Sometimes I can be quite rational. I know it sounds strange ie. unlike me, but I've just realized that I'm NOT always emo as I thought.
Part of growing up, I suppose?
Jan 26, 2010
no matter what. no matter how.
1. Read this from "Dear John"
Btw, the book is quite good. The love story was beautiful (well, duh, the guy wrote "Notebook" @_@)
Just that, I'm not quite in a mood to read love stories.
As I said, the love in "Dear John" is beautiful. And most importantly, it's believable. Almost magical and yet still surprisingly real.
And that's exactly what makes me uncomfortable.
Someone once said this to me (cant remember who), sth like, stories are just people's dreams. What they wish to see in the world and cannot achieve, they bring into their books.
I find it true for most of the times (of course, not all the time ok? Nothing is absolute, except Vodka :)) - adapted from Lud's quote)
And hence this quote:
I think I'm better off not believing in them.
So, no horror movies/stories or romantic movies/stories for me, please. At least at this time.
(except Korean ones, because they are completely and insanely unbelievable =)) )
2. No matter what would happen, no matter how this will go, it'll always be great to know a special and interesting person like you. At least as a friend. At least we can be friends.
Thinking about it that way makes me feel better.
3. Yesterday was quite crazy toward the end. The way a lot of people tried to help me to 'split' in the air :)) the way Yuan Lu kept telling me "no, I think you can do this" and kept making me doing crazy stuffs :)) the way Li Min told ppl "@___@ Arr, you guys are killing her already" :))
Even Zhen Jun was very friendly and helpful =D
And Marc was also really helpful. I used to think that Marc is a bit 'cold'. He's the best with sword, and every time I asked to learn sword, ppl all pointed to him, but actually I didn't dare to approach -__-" But he surprised me with a very long comment on my picture with sword to correct my pose. And yesterday he was also quite patient in teaching me the sword. Shifu, I will try my best =D
4. Didn't know what to say at that time, so I changed topic :-s Anw, all the best.
And sorry sorry sorry again for bothering you -__-". I owe you 2 fish burgers, ok? Next time!
Passion and satisfaction go hand in hand, and without them, any happiness is only temporary, because there’s nothing to make it last.I think I would focus more on what I love to do. That's the surest way to stay balanced and positive. Should not be distracted by things that are so insecure...
Btw, the book is quite good. The love story was beautiful (well, duh, the guy wrote "Notebook" @_@)
Just that, I'm not quite in a mood to read love stories.
As I said, the love in "Dear John" is beautiful. And most importantly, it's believable. Almost magical and yet still surprisingly real.
And that's exactly what makes me uncomfortable.
Someone once said this to me (cant remember who), sth like, stories are just people's dreams. What they wish to see in the world and cannot achieve, they bring into their books.
I find it true for most of the times (of course, not all the time ok? Nothing is absolute, except Vodka :)) - adapted from Lud's quote)
And hence this quote:
“True love is like ghosts, which everybody talks about and few have seen.”It's not that I don't believe in them, ghosts and true love alike. I just don't want to (or I try not to).
-François de la Rochefoucauld
I think I'm better off not believing in them.
So, no horror movies/stories or romantic movies/stories for me, please. At least at this time.
(except Korean ones, because they are completely and insanely unbelievable =)) )
2. No matter what would happen, no matter how this will go, it'll always be great to know a special and interesting person like you. At least as a friend. At least we can be friends.
Thinking about it that way makes me feel better.
3. Yesterday was quite crazy toward the end. The way a lot of people tried to help me to 'split' in the air :)) the way Yuan Lu kept telling me "no, I think you can do this" and kept making me doing crazy stuffs :)) the way Li Min told ppl "@___@ Arr, you guys are killing her already" :))
Even Zhen Jun was very friendly and helpful =D
And Marc was also really helpful. I used to think that Marc is a bit 'cold'. He's the best with sword, and every time I asked to learn sword, ppl all pointed to him, but actually I didn't dare to approach -__-" But he surprised me with a very long comment on my picture with sword to correct my pose. And yesterday he was also quite patient in teaching me the sword. Shifu, I will try my best =D
4. Didn't know what to say at that time, so I changed topic :-s Anw, all the best.
And sorry sorry sorry again for bothering you -__-". I owe you 2 fish burgers, ok? Next time!
Jan 25, 2010
happening weekend.
1. Finally done with watever Mom wanted me to do. Haiz...
Though I really really don't like it, but the way she always ends her email with sth like "don't be angry with me, I just want the best for you" makes me unable to get angry. So every time I received her mail, I just sighed...
Instead, I got angry with myself for making her worried over such stuffs...
I'm tired, mom.
I'm sorry... I wish I could just close my eyes to it and do watever u want. I couldn't :(
Anw, I made such a big effort to be nice and polite. That's the best I can do. Common sense is supposed to be common. Please.
2. It's not until yesterday that I finally digested the fact that Branko is gonna leave us.
He's such a really nice guy, and everyone loves him. Yesterday, I looked at him and suddenly it dawned on me: omg, I won't see him for a very long time. Maybe I won't see him again.
It's sad.
Yet again, I've grown familiar with all these.
3. I met the cleaning auntie while waiting for lift. She told me about a good friend of her, who is in US now.
1 month and 14 years.
Then I feel ashamed. For crying over my friends leaving.
Friends are friends, no matter where they are...
Would ask for her name next time.
4. Some quotes over the weekend:
(regarding my profile pic on FB. It's a SWORD, Ken, not a stick. Yes. No matter how it looks.)
(in the outing)
Hui Jun was wearing her beloved sunglasses.
Though I really really don't like it, but the way she always ends her email with sth like "don't be angry with me, I just want the best for you" makes me unable to get angry. So every time I received her mail, I just sighed...
Instead, I got angry with myself for making her worried over such stuffs...
I'm tired, mom.
I'm sorry... I wish I could just close my eyes to it and do watever u want. I couldn't :(
Anw, I made such a big effort to be nice and polite. That's the best I can do. Common sense is supposed to be common. Please.
2. It's not until yesterday that I finally digested the fact that Branko is gonna leave us.
He's such a really nice guy, and everyone loves him. Yesterday, I looked at him and suddenly it dawned on me: omg, I won't see him for a very long time. Maybe I won't see him again.
It's sad.
Yet again, I've grown familiar with all these.
3. I met the cleaning auntie while waiting for lift. She told me about a good friend of her, who is in US now.
She: I haven't seen her for 14 years already you know?
Rim: 14 years? @___@
She: yes. But we still keep in touch. She always calls me.
Rim: wow.
She: before she went to US, we only knew each other for 1 month. But she and me already become so close, like sisters.
1 month and 14 years.
Then I feel ashamed. For crying over my friends leaving.
Friends are friends, no matter where they are...
Would ask for her name next time.
4. Some quotes over the weekend:
(regarding my profile pic on FB. It's a SWORD, Ken, not a stick. Yes. No matter how it looks.)
Ken: =))
Rim: why do you laugh? :|
Ken: u look shorter than tt stick. It's just pathetically hilarious =))
(in the outing)
Marc: do you like durian?
Rim: I don't hate it, but I also don't like it.
Marc: Whatttttttttt? @___@ I think u didn't eat it enough. If you do, u MUST like it.
Rim: errr :|
Jon: so how does China Town look like at night?
Ryan: at night ah? Dark loh :|
The rest: -__-"
Hui Jun was wearing her beloved sunglasses.
Hui Jun: do I look cool? =D
Rim: u know, cool ppl don't go around asking others whether they look cool or not :|
Hui Jun: true... *stop for several seconds* But I can't help it! *turn to Branko* Do I look cool? =D
The rest: -___-" (hard to answer...)
Jan 23, 2010
already Saturday...
1. Maybe what ppl said is true?
I guess I'm still in denial T___T
Then...
can you be a lil bit less friendly to meeeeeeeee? :(( I AM clouded :(( Used to be, and still am! :(( and you being friendly to me is not helping :| I cannot see things clearly, I'm confused T_T
though I have to admit, it did make me feel happy sometimes...
2. My knee hit the hard ground yesterday and now I've got a beautiful bruise right there, so painful T_T
3. Yesterday I ate bread before wushu, and Yeow Siong and Limin still complained that I didn't eat enough. Still, better than cookies, isn't it?
Though cookies sure taste better :|
3. Hui Jun said she would have to go back earlier from now on... :| urmm... okay Xiao Jun, maybe I should go with you :)
Remember when we started talking about that topic, I could feel that you are so tense, and it was so funny that I couldn't help smiling XD
Then when I said that I already knew it like months ago, you were like this: "o.O AAAA really???"
That's funny =))
Well, girl, Yes, luckily it's not what u thought it is. But remember this, even if it's the worst (well, duh, it used to be, remember? =,= ), it's not like the end of the world, so don't be so serious =x it would be tough, but we would be able to handle it, when we have to.
I guess I'm still in denial T___T
Then...
can you be a lil bit less friendly to meeeeeeeee? :(( I AM clouded :(( Used to be, and still am! :(( and you being friendly to me is not helping :| I cannot see things clearly, I'm confused T_T
though I have to admit, it did make me feel happy sometimes...
2. My knee hit the hard ground yesterday and now I've got a beautiful bruise right there, so painful T_T
3. Yesterday I ate bread before wushu, and Yeow Siong and Limin still complained that I didn't eat enough. Still, better than cookies, isn't it?
Though cookies sure taste better :|
3. Hui Jun said she would have to go back earlier from now on... :| urmm... okay Xiao Jun, maybe I should go with you :)
Remember when we started talking about that topic, I could feel that you are so tense, and it was so funny that I couldn't help smiling XD
Then when I said that I already knew it like months ago, you were like this: "o.O AAAA really???"
That's funny =))
Well, girl, Yes, luckily it's not what u thought it is. But remember this, even if it's the worst (well, duh, it used to be, remember? =,= ), it's not like the end of the world, so don't be so serious =x it would be tough, but we would be able to handle it, when we have to.
Jan 22, 2010
Rainy morning huh?
1. Days seem short.
I shall try not to waste my time (too much :|)
Little things add up, right? *wink*
2. We all have to make choices, a lot a lot of times in our life. And we are expected to know what to choose.
The thing is, choices are limited.
(this I took from a super duper lame movie I watched last night :| maybe the only thing worth remembering about it :|)
3. I remembered a friend once called me "Miss Rain." I was surprised:
"Miss Rain? Tại sao tao lại là Miss Rain"
She replied :
"Mày mỏng mảnh như 1 làn mưa"
Suddenly I felt small. And cold.
"But rains always make me cold." I typed.
This girl didn't even meet me in real life, I only know her on FB, through another friend.
And that comment about me, I don't know whether I should take it positively or negatively.
I've always thought, happy girls are like sunshine. And I've been trying to be a lil miss sunshine. I want to be happy and make others happy, too. But... have I been trying too hard?
I told Nam about this as a joke, and I expected him to laugh at it. Instead, he said "yah it sounds like you"
Huh?
After all, I DON'T like rains that much.
I shall try not to waste my time (too much :|)
Little things add up, right? *wink*
2. We all have to make choices, a lot a lot of times in our life. And we are expected to know what to choose.
The thing is, choices are limited.
(this I took from a super duper lame movie I watched last night :| maybe the only thing worth remembering about it :|)
3. I remembered a friend once called me "Miss Rain." I was surprised:
"Miss Rain? Tại sao tao lại là Miss Rain"
She replied :
"Mày mỏng mảnh như 1 làn mưa"
Suddenly I felt small. And cold.
"But rains always make me cold." I typed.
This girl didn't even meet me in real life, I only know her on FB, through another friend.
And that comment about me, I don't know whether I should take it positively or negatively.
I've always thought, happy girls are like sunshine. And I've been trying to be a lil miss sunshine. I want to be happy and make others happy, too. But... have I been trying too hard?
I told Nam about this as a joke, and I expected him to laugh at it. Instead, he said "yah it sounds like you"
Huh?
After all, I DON'T like rains that much.
Jan 20, 2010
just woke up :|
well, I got home at around 9 and went to sleep right away, and woke up at an odd hour =,=
and then read her sms.
Ha. Expected. Really expected. Read it with a smile.
then opened my laptop. Read her blog.
Well, a lil bit surprised this time round.
Girl, I was guessing that you would ask, especially after reading ur blog last night, but I wasn't so sure...
And today, ur sms and ur new post just kinda "confirmed" it even more :))
You sound really worried, and I don't know why I am feeling amused =P Maybe because of this mind reading thingy :)) I always find it an interesting experience when u feel that u really understand someone, u know what they are thinking and what they would do next. And it is even more interesting when u think that the other person also understand u
*(off-track a bit: eh xuki, also have this feeling with u :D )
I'm excited XD but I wanna talk to her face to face, not via SMS or watever. I wanna look at her face, look in her eyes and see if my guess is true XD sound really evil, like mind game hahahh gotta tease her for sureeeeee
Sorry, I cannot help it XD
but girl, really, don't be worried about anything :) I am not, why should u? Even if it's true, I think we are all mature enough :D if anything, it would only make we understand each other better :)
I think I already have the answer for Nam's last question about the third person :) it's u. U should feel honored okay? :P
now now, thanks to Ah Piao who let me know about ur blog and let u know about mine XD
PS: and exactly HOW am I supposed to go back to sleep with this mood? =,=
and then read her sms.
Ha. Expected. Really expected. Read it with a smile.
then opened my laptop. Read her blog.
Well, a lil bit surprised this time round.
Girl, I was guessing that you would ask, especially after reading ur blog last night, but I wasn't so sure...
And today, ur sms and ur new post just kinda "confirmed" it even more :))
You sound really worried, and I don't know why I am feeling amused =P Maybe because of this mind reading thingy :)) I always find it an interesting experience when u feel that u really understand someone, u know what they are thinking and what they would do next. And it is even more interesting when u think that the other person also understand u
*(off-track a bit: eh xuki, also have this feeling with u :D )
I'm excited XD but I wanna talk to her face to face, not via SMS or watever. I wanna look at her face, look in her eyes and see if my guess is true XD sound really evil, like mind game hahahh gotta tease her for sureeeeee
Sorry, I cannot help it XD
but girl, really, don't be worried about anything :) I am not, why should u? Even if it's true, I think we are all mature enough :D if anything, it would only make we understand each other better :)
I think I already have the answer for Nam's last question about the third person :) it's u. U should feel honored okay? :P
now now, thanks to Ah Piao who let me know about ur blog and let u know about mine XD
PS: and exactly HOW am I supposed to go back to sleep with this mood? =,=
Jan 19, 2010
haiz
1. Just know that Hui Jun has a blog :|
And surprised to know that my name turns up in there quite a lot :|
just like how I mentioned her name in my blog :P
Now she and Ah Piao also knew about my blog. Feel like I need to be even moreeee careful with watever I write here, huh? XD
2. From Hui Jun's expression, I could tell that she felt quite uncomfy with yesterday's last talk. I can understand.
Sometimes ppl might be a lil weird. Well, ppl are all different from each other, arent they? As long as they don't do any harm to others, being weird is not a crime, is it? Maybe they are just socially awkward, we don't know yet. And it seems a bit unfair to judge ppl based on small incidents like that.
That said, it's still better to be careful :-s Hard to keep balance huh?
3. The burger was not bad at all :D
Normally I hate to bother ppl. Unless it's impossible for me to do it, when ppl offer to help, my usual reply is "it's okay, I can do it"
But yesterday it was quite late, and after all the creepy topics, I was a bit scared :-s sorry for bothering u, Ah Piao -__-"
4. Sometimes, some random questions can really make you think. Sometimes they made u realize some hard truths.
Just like what Nam asked me.
It was not until then that I seriously thought about that. It was not until then that I looked back.
I just couldn't answer.
Nam didn't know that there were tears in my eyes right that moment. But they were just there for a few seconds. And then they dried up... as if they've never been there.
Maybe just my imagination. Maybe they've never been there :-? :D
And surprised to know that my name turns up in there quite a lot :|
just like how I mentioned her name in my blog :P
Now she and Ah Piao also knew about my blog. Feel like I need to be even moreeee careful with watever I write here, huh? XD
2. From Hui Jun's expression, I could tell that she felt quite uncomfy with yesterday's last talk. I can understand.
Sometimes ppl might be a lil weird. Well, ppl are all different from each other, arent they? As long as they don't do any harm to others, being weird is not a crime, is it? Maybe they are just socially awkward, we don't know yet. And it seems a bit unfair to judge ppl based on small incidents like that.
That said, it's still better to be careful :-s Hard to keep balance huh?
3. The burger was not bad at all :D
Normally I hate to bother ppl. Unless it's impossible for me to do it, when ppl offer to help, my usual reply is "it's okay, I can do it"
But yesterday it was quite late, and after all the creepy topics, I was a bit scared :-s sorry for bothering u, Ah Piao -__-"
4. Sometimes, some random questions can really make you think. Sometimes they made u realize some hard truths.
Just like what Nam asked me.
Nam: eh mày, ở Singapore xuki là best friend của mày hả?
Rìm: ò
Nam: second best?
Rìm: :| ...
Nam: tao hả? tao chứ còn ai nữa giờ.
Rìm: :|
It was not until then that I seriously thought about that. It was not until then that I looked back.
Nam: Rồi, vậy third best?
Rìm: :| ...
I just couldn't answer.
Nam didn't know that there were tears in my eyes right that moment. But they were just there for a few seconds. And then they dried up... as if they've never been there.
Maybe just my imagination. Maybe they've never been there :-? :D
Jan 18, 2010
Jan 17, 2010
taxi or MRT?
Nam's CPU was spoilt, and he had to carry it to Sim Lim square to get it repaired. Asked me to go with him. I was bored, so I agreed.
Rìm: đi taxi đi.
Nam: thui, tao nghèo lắm :((
Rìm *nhìn nhìn Nam 5s*
Rìm: okay, đi MRT thì đi, mày vác máy đi nha. (quay lưng xách túi bỏ đi trước)
Nam *mắt rưng rưng*
Nam: eh thôi chắc đi taxi đi, chắc khoảng $15
Rìm: được đó
Nam: mày trả $5 nha :|
Rìm *nhìn nhìn Nam 5s*
Rìm *nhún vai* okay vậy mày đi taxi 1 mình đi nha, tao đi MRT cũng được.
Nam *mắt rưng rưng*
Nam: chắc đi taxi 1 chiều thôi :-s
Rìm: cũng được. Vậy giờ đi taxi đi, giờ chưa ăn. Lát ăn rồi mình mới có sức, mình mới vác máy được
Nam: o` có lý
Rim *suy nghĩ 5s*
Rìm: sorry nói lộn, lát ăn rồi MÀY mới có sức, MÀY mới vác máy được, hong fải "mình" :)
Nam *mắt rưng rưng*
Jan 16, 2010
hum
1. Skipped 1 session without knowing.
Will have to skip another session due to coming back home on Lunar New Year.
And today, late 30 mins (each session is 60mins).
Doesn't sound like a good start.
Nvm.
2. Spent the morning watching Korean drama today. It felt sooooo good. Nah, not because of the show, it's because doing this reminded me of a few lazy days right after exams, staying in watching movies non-stop without worries :))
But I guess I've grown out of this kind of Korean drama thou :| The one I watched was "You are beautiful". It's quite popular. But really, if you want to enjoy it, my advice is that you watch it without thinking. No thinking at all.
So that you won't question why the 3 cute and famous guys fall for the same girl in a short time, why there is such a silly girl on earth (a few words really cannot tell you how silly she is T_T), why this silly girl falls for the guy who is the most bossy and always mean to her, why the 2 main character almost say goodbye for such a lame reason, etc. etc.
Oi, I feel so old now, for even bothering to criticize a Korean drama T_T
3. I want to be a better person.
Will have to skip another session due to coming back home on Lunar New Year.
And today, late 30 mins (each session is 60mins).
Doesn't sound like a good start.
Nvm.
2. Spent the morning watching Korean drama today. It felt sooooo good. Nah, not because of the show, it's because doing this reminded me of a few lazy days right after exams, staying in watching movies non-stop without worries :))
But I guess I've grown out of this kind of Korean drama thou :| The one I watched was "You are beautiful". It's quite popular. But really, if you want to enjoy it, my advice is that you watch it without thinking. No thinking at all.
So that you won't question why the 3 cute and famous guys fall for the same girl in a short time, why there is such a silly girl on earth (a few words really cannot tell you how silly she is T_T), why this silly girl falls for the guy who is the most bossy and always mean to her, why the 2 main character almost say goodbye for such a lame reason, etc. etc.
Oi, I feel so old now, for even bothering to criticize a Korean drama T_T
3. I want to be a better person.
Jan 15, 2010
:)
1. today I saw a guy from afar near Science lib and I thought it was Meryl. Although it was because he was quite far away and I didn't see his face very clearly, this still amused me.
And I smiled a genuine smile.
2. Reminder to self:
Look on the bright side, lil girl.
Tell ppl the good things you see in them.
Learn from their good things.
3. Some quotes:
thôi, nhào dzô đại luôn cho rồi đê =)) cùng lắm thì bị hurt, dzìa nhà úp mặt dzô gối khóc huhuhu thôi mà, đỡ bị mấy đứa kia nhào dzô bắt nạt :))
4. I used to see Yuan Lu's handphone screen, it was a picture of me and her. And now I know it still is @___@ (maybe it's coz she looks good in the picture lah =)) but I don't care, as long as i'm there hahah, at least she didnt crop my face out huh)
Then I remember my 1st days in wushu, she was the one who helped me a lot, and talked to me a lot =D I used to be the only newbie in Friday's session :-ss It was a bit scaried :-ss
Anw, she is nice =)
5. It is fun bitching about guys (well, a guy) with Pearl =))
And so is teasing her. And so is being teased.
:D
5. Maybe I know that I'm gonna be totally fine, no matter what.
Maybe I know that even if there's no one beside to comfort me, I would be fine real soon.
Maybe I know that I might be complaining right now, but I would keep going.
Maybe I know that I might shed some tears some night, but I would happily smile the next morning.
But really, all those little things help it heal much much much faster :D
And I smiled a genuine smile.
2. Reminder to self:
Look on the bright side, lil girl.
Tell ppl the good things you see in them.
Learn from their good things.
3. Some quotes:
"Life is not about waiting for the storm to pass...It's about learning how to dance in the rain." (unknown)
"Frank Dixon: You could have any man you wanted… why Viktor Navorski?
Amelia: That’s something a man like you could *never* hope to understand." (The terminal -2004, taken from xuki :">)
thôi, nhào dzô đại luôn cho rồi đê =)) cùng lắm thì bị hurt, dzìa nhà úp mặt dzô gối khóc huhuhu thôi mà, đỡ bị mấy đứa kia nhào dzô bắt nạt :))
4. I used to see Yuan Lu's handphone screen, it was a picture of me and her. And now I know it still is @___@ (maybe it's coz she looks good in the picture lah =)) but I don't care, as long as i'm there hahah, at least she didnt crop my face out huh)
Then I remember my 1st days in wushu, she was the one who helped me a lot, and talked to me a lot =D I used to be the only newbie in Friday's session :-ss It was a bit scaried :-ss
Anw, she is nice =)
5. It is fun bitching about guys (well, a guy) with Pearl =))
And so is teasing her. And so is being teased.
:D
5. Maybe I know that I'm gonna be totally fine, no matter what.
Maybe I know that even if there's no one beside to comfort me, I would be fine real soon.
Maybe I know that I might be complaining right now, but I would keep going.
Maybe I know that I might shed some tears some night, but I would happily smile the next morning.
But really, all those little things help it heal much much much faster :D
Jan 14, 2010
hu`m. Life is weird :|
around 3 days ago
I was thinking to myself
"i've got a feeling
that today's gonna be a good day
that this week's gonna be a good week
that this month's gonna be a good month
that this year's gonna be a good year"
and 3 days later, I'm lying flat on my bed, writing this blog, and unable to recall why I was so happy that time...
hu`
I was thinking to myself
"i've got a feeling
that today's gonna be a good day
that this week's gonna be a good week
that this month's gonna be a good month
that this year's gonna be a good year"
and 3 days later, I'm lying flat on my bed, writing this blog, and unable to recall why I was so happy that time...
hu`
this is just one of the sad days
This is one of my emo days, when I feel so down, and dont even bother to do anything to cover it, to go against my sadness. I just let my feelings overtake.
I wanted to cry. At some time I really wanted to cry. But then I looked up at the sky. It was too nice.. It was so blue, with sparkling bright and warm sunlight, with wind blowing through the green leaves.
The sky was too nice for me to cry on such a day.
Don't worry. I would come around real soon. You can trust me on that, right? Just like every other time :)
Latest by tomorrow's night I would be okay :P got wushu :P and just like what I've promised, I would focus this time :) it should be able to distract me from all the pain.
But I guess it would be hard to sleep tonight...
I wanted to cry. At some time I really wanted to cry. But then I looked up at the sky. It was too nice.. It was so blue, with sparkling bright and warm sunlight, with wind blowing through the green leaves.
The sky was too nice for me to cry on such a day.
Don't worry. I would come around real soon. You can trust me on that, right? Just like every other time :)
Latest by tomorrow's night I would be okay :P got wushu :P and just like what I've promised, I would focus this time :) it should be able to distract me from all the pain.
But I guess it would be hard to sleep tonight...
"May our paths cross again someday" (from Ken to Linh)
Linh is confirmed to go back to Vietnam permanently.
I'm damn sad.
Ain't I supposed to be used to all these already? All the news, all the farewells ...
One by one, they just left.
What am I feeling right now?
I feel like a lonely tree. I feel like a tree, with her branches being cut off. One by one.
Or I feel like a fragile flower. I feel like a flower, with her petals being plucked out. One by one.
And it hurts.
And yet, I still have to wish the best for them. I still have to help them to be where they need to be, where they belong to. I still have to do my best to find a way for them to fly away, to leave me, if they ever need my help.
okay, who's next?
Just tell me, when is ur turn?
Life treats my well so far. It's just that in moments like this, I cannot feel happy. I cannot light myself up. I tried, thou.
I'm damn sad.
Ain't I supposed to be used to all these already? All the news, all the farewells ...
One by one, they just left.
What am I feeling right now?
I feel like a lonely tree. I feel like a tree, with her branches being cut off. One by one.
Or I feel like a fragile flower. I feel like a flower, with her petals being plucked out. One by one.
And it hurts.
And yet, I still have to wish the best for them. I still have to help them to be where they need to be, where they belong to. I still have to do my best to find a way for them to fly away, to leave me, if they ever need my help.
okay, who's next?
Just tell me, when is ur turn?
Life treats my well so far. It's just that in moments like this, I cannot feel happy. I cannot light myself up. I tried, thou.
Jan 13, 2010
after lunch =P
1. today I finished my lunch and returned to the office quite early (and hence this post :P). The reason is science canteen is exceptionally empty today, considering the timing (I came down at 12pm o__O expected it to be super crowded), so I decided to have lunch right there. It saved me some time :P
I've been seeing quite a few of Wushu mates around Science, havent I? :-? Ryan, Jing Yuan, Kwanbum (just yesterday, hey u didn't come to Wushu recently :-w), Chee Seong (just now :D)
2. Supposed to keep searching for references, but trying to delay it (again hahah).
Checked my mailbox and found an amusing email hahah. Such a short and "straightforward" email! :))
I think I'm gonna reply to find out who this "anh Dũng" and "anh Phuong" are. Some people are really strange/weird/funny :))
I've been seeing quite a few of Wushu mates around Science, havent I? :-? Ryan, Jing Yuan, Kwanbum (just yesterday, hey u didn't come to Wushu recently :-w), Chee Seong (just now :D)
2. Supposed to keep searching for references, but trying to delay it (again hahah).
Checked my mailbox and found an amusing email hahah. Such a short and "straightforward" email! :))
I think I'm gonna reply to find out who this "anh Dũng" and "anh Phuong" are. Some people are really strange/weird/funny :))
T_T
1. Am supposed to search for references right now, but don't feel like doing it T_T Why is it so hard to search for these structures?
I'm just a small girl T_T and science is such a big world.
2. Wondering when I would finish my shower gel bottles, or whether I would be able to finish them at all :|
Right now I'm having 5 regular-size and 2 small-size bottles of shower gel :| 5 of them are from The Body Shop xD
It's not my fault ok? Who told them to keep having major sales? and who told them to sell those shower gel with soooo sweet smells? :-w
Anw, it's not my fault xD
3. My phone is gonna out of battery soon. Ha, I really can live without handphone, and still doing quite fine.
Quite.
(unless I get lost. Which is also quite likely. Quite :|)
I'm just a small girl T_T and science is such a big world.
2. Wondering when I would finish my shower gel bottles, or whether I would be able to finish them at all :|
Right now I'm having 5 regular-size and 2 small-size bottles of shower gel :| 5 of them are from The Body Shop xD
It's not my fault ok? Who told them to keep having major sales? and who told them to sell those shower gel with soooo sweet smells? :-w
Anw, it's not my fault xD
3. My phone is gonna out of battery soon. Ha, I really can live without handphone, and still doing quite fine.
Quite.
(unless I get lost. Which is also quite likely. Quite :|)
Jan 12, 2010
a sleepy morning...
1. It's the back to school week. The campus starts to be filled with people. Crowded canteen, crowded bus, crowded library. The more the merrier, neh?
The new sem is here. Wish everyone a good sem ahead, ha ;)
I dont know. I feel it's a bit lame/corny to say this, but I think I really love NUS campus. Everything belong to this place is so familiar and so dear to me.
2. Hồi trước thì hay Nhật ký công cộng. Sau thì chuyển wa Facebook Note, bây giờ chui vô blog :| càng lúc càng khép kín thì fải :|
3. Yesterday I didn't really focus on practicing. Maybe after 2 weeks of ăn chơi, I was quite lazy. Or maybe I was so happy to see ppl again, I just ran around saying hi and talking.
I promise I would be gooooood this Friday. Promise! xD
4. Didn't talk much to u thou.
anw, yes I'm back, hellooooo, HELLOOOOOOOO!
...
Hello :D
5. I find that recently lots of my entries have been written with lots of caution. Many times after reading again what I just wrote, I edited it or deleted the whole thing. In this entry, number 4 was edited several times. (althoug I really really wanna say sth!!!!)
Because I don't want you to find out. At least for now. Are u reading this? I'd better be careful.
The new sem is here. Wish everyone a good sem ahead, ha ;)
I dont know. I feel it's a bit lame/corny to say this, but I think I really love NUS campus. Everything belong to this place is so familiar and so dear to me.
2. Hồi trước thì hay Nhật ký công cộng. Sau thì chuyển wa Facebook Note, bây giờ chui vô blog :| càng lúc càng khép kín thì fải :|
3. Yesterday I didn't really focus on practicing. Maybe after 2 weeks of ăn chơi, I was quite lazy. Or maybe I was so happy to see ppl again, I just ran around saying hi and talking.
I promise I would be gooooood this Friday. Promise! xD
4. Didn't talk much to u thou.
anw, yes I'm back, hellooooo, HELLOOOOOOOO!
...
Hello :D
5. I find that recently lots of my entries have been written with lots of caution. Many times after reading again what I just wrote, I edited it or deleted the whole thing. In this entry, number 4 was edited several times. (althoug I really really wanna say sth!!!!)
Because I don't want you to find out. At least for now. Are u reading this? I'd better be careful.
Jan 11, 2010
a smile to light it up
This morning I gave way to a cleaning auntie. She thanked me with such a bright smile that it amazed me.
Jan 10, 2010
Sunday
1. So now I'm back to Singapore.
Tomorrow I'm gonna be back to work. I've gathered the document and put them into my bag.
Tomorrow I'm gonna go to wushu. I've prepared the clothes and the shoes.
Tomorrow I'm gonna see Hui Jun and the wushu gang.
Somehow it feels good to know that you are missed. Or at least, you are remembered. Both in Vietnam and in Singapore. Both here and there. Someone is missing me, somewhere. (or at least that's wat ppl told me :|)
2. Right after I'm back to Singapore, I've lost my appetite ;'( I don't know why, but I don't feel like eating anything here, which is completely different when I was in Vietnam :| I just ate ate and ate and ate around :|
3. Just checked the calendar and found out that I'm gonna miss a lot of other fun stuffs when I go back to VN this Lunar new year :| erm... :-ss
4. Nhà mình tiêu tiền ghia wá :| về nhà thấy mẹ đại gia wá mìn sợ :|
But it's good to know that my family is enjoying a good life :)
5. Quote:
Tomorrow I'm gonna be back to work. I've gathered the document and put them into my bag.
Tomorrow I'm gonna go to wushu. I've prepared the clothes and the shoes.
Tomorrow I'm gonna see Hui Jun and the wushu gang.
Somehow it feels good to know that you are missed. Or at least, you are remembered. Both in Vietnam and in Singapore. Both here and there. Someone is missing me, somewhere. (or at least that's wat ppl told me :|)
2. Right after I'm back to Singapore, I've lost my appetite ;'( I don't know why, but I don't feel like eating anything here, which is completely different when I was in Vietnam :| I just ate ate and ate and ate around :|
3. Just checked the calendar and found out that I'm gonna miss a lot of other fun stuffs when I go back to VN this Lunar new year :| erm... :-ss
4. Nhà mình tiêu tiền ghia wá :| về nhà thấy mẹ đại gia wá mìn sợ :|
But it's good to know that my family is enjoying a good life :)
5. Quote:
Rim: blah blah
Rim: nó hỏi gì dzô dziên thấy ghê luôn, common sense ở đâu hong bít nữa:-s
abcd: thực ra tao cũng muốn hỏi =))
Rìm: ò, thực ra ai cũng muốn hỏi nhưng không ai dám hỏi =))
Rìm: mà ai cũng muốn hỏi nhưng thực ra ai cũng biết rồi =))
6. hm. How have you been?
anw, see ya real soon :)
(thought of u randomly now and then...)
anw, see ya real soon :)
(thought of u randomly now and then...)
Jan 8, 2010
New year ~
1. I can see so many good things to look forward to in the new year. Definitely gonna be a happy new year :)
After all, it's a fresh start. I'm gonna make it a happening and eventful year.
Rim is in excited mood :D
2. New year resolution:
- I'm gonna keep training hard, and will try to be able to split by June xD or else I will have to treat Hui Jun Haagen Dazs ice cream xD
- Take the course that I registered. I'm really excited about this :) thou I haven't started yet, I have a feeling that I'm gonna love it, totally.
- Read more books. I'm really surprised at what NUS library has to offer. Gotta make good use of it. Never too late, right?
that's for now :-?
After all, it's a fresh start. I'm gonna make it a happening and eventful year.
Rim is in excited mood :D
2. New year resolution:
- I'm gonna keep training hard, and will try to be able to split by June xD or else I will have to treat Hui Jun Haagen Dazs ice cream xD
- Take the course that I registered. I'm really excited about this :) thou I haven't started yet, I have a feeling that I'm gonna love it, totally.
- Read more books. I'm really surprised at what NUS library has to offer. Gotta make good use of it. Never too late, right?
that's for now :-?
3. The trip to Hoi An n Da Nang was really nice. I ate a looooooot :|
The people there are either ridiculously kind and warm and friendly or ridiculously rude :|
The goods can be ridiculously expensive or ridiculously cheap (sometimes free) :|
The goods can be ridiculously expensive or ridiculously cheap (sometimes free) :|
I just wish that Hoi An wouldn't be commercialized too much... :-s
4. Everything was fun. Had a great time eating and playing and seeing around.
And yet I still missed sth. Well, actually a lot of things.
:)
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