All the rivers run

This was posted on my FB, by Hui Jun.

And I really want to keep it.

Where would Thao Pham want to spend the rest of her life if she had to pick one place?

still vietnam ba.. though i hope it's singapore.. =)

I don't know what to say, as usual.

I'm not sure whether she really meant it.

I'm not sure where I will end up spend the rest of my life either.

If you ask me to pick one place, I guess she was right. Vietnam.

But, sometimes I feel lost, it's like when you are standing in the middle of running rivers and don't know which one you should follow. I feel like i'm torn between these 2 places.

True, Vietnam is where I belong to. But Singapore has become sth more than just a place where I live temporarily. I've got friends, I've got connections, I've managed to form some memories with this land... And so leaving is not too easy anymore.

I'm sure if that happens, I'll miss Singapore a lot. And I'll be sad, a lot.

That I can be sure of.

Am I too greedy when I want to keep everything?

I don't want to lose the past, nor the present. I'm afraid to think of the future. I'm too skeptical about forming new friendships.

Friends left me, and will leave me. Ind I left them and I'll leave them, too. Thinking of all the farewell hurts. What can I do? What's left ?