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1. deleted

2. Talked to Meryl about an unprepared soccer match:

Me: I was scared of hitting people. So every time the ball run towards me...
Meryl (cutting me off): ... you would run away :))
Me: :@) ok, you know it.
Meryl (shrugged): Yah, of course, typical you.

3. It's raining so hard out there, and I don't know how I can go out to have lunch now.

4. Seems like Danny would come to Singapore real soon :| recently i've been chatting with him quite frequently, but when he said "perhaps will come visit u for the weekend sometime"... :|

You know, when you chat with someone, knowing that he's in another country, all that time you kept happily assuming that u'll never meet the person, and then suddenly "i will pay u a visit sometime not too long" 3:-o
Nvm 3:-o

5. I'm working on a whole new part. DNA :|

lil lost girl

Pearl asked me why I didn't blog recently. Yah, I blog less. Partly because my stupid laptop and my home network don't like each other.

Another reason is ...

Well, I don't really know how to put it down, the way I feel. What to say? Normally when I'm mentally unstable, I'd love to write things down, to look at them, to access them, to understand more wth I'm having, wth is happening inside my head, to face them.

Maybe this time I'm scared to look at them. And everything is blurred. Maybe I want it that way. Blurred. Nothing is clear enough for me to see. And I dont want to see.

But, maybe it's not the best way. I don't see, but I still can feel it.

Jeez. The whole mess is in my head now T_T

Maybe I should just write down T_T coz I hate talking to ppl about all these.

bu`n ngủ

1. Bùn ngủ kinh khủng T_T
2. Just read this from somewhere:

Is it better to break your own heart or to settle for the second best?

Dun know.

:@)

Life is funny (Nah, funny is not the right word, but I don't really care)

There are people who are studying the whole university, dreaming of stars that are billions light years from us, of those objects that are too big for tiny creatures like us to imagine.
And there are people who study about virus, about cells, about whatever things that are too tiny for big creatures like us to imagine.
And the rest don't care about those, things that they cannot imagine, they care more about things that are their size :@)

Some study the future. Some study the past. Some just focus on the present.

Some think in numbers. Some think in words. Some think in visuals.

Some love to think. Some like to talk. Some prefer actions.

So, Life is funny. Cute. (Ya right, I tend to use those words for everything)

Nothing Serious

[taken n modified a bit from Nothing Serious by Justine Levy]

I don't even need to think about it to think about it, it's always with me, like a weight, a regret, a gentle presence, a huge despair.

:D

1. This is to mark down a day that I felt good. In times like this, such days are not so frequent, hence I need to appreciate it ^_^

- Didn't come on Friday. And 2 people asked me about that. that's enough to make me smile. Thanks guys, Branko n Hui Jin.

- I didn't expect that. The best I could think of is, well, the most hard working trainee kind of thing. So... er... er... don't know what else to say, really :| Thanks

- :D :)

- :D

- Got a friend who lives near me. Then hopefully I won't have to go home alone after trainings anymore =) Thanks for showing me bus 963 Ah Piao =)

2. But, still feel that distance. So near yet too far. So warm yet too cold.

:D

1. Hôm qua đi chơi với Linh và MM và mấy người cùng nhà nó. Tự nhiên thấy là tính cách con người ta nhiều khi rất là đa diện. MM coi vậy mà ko sợ commitment :)), ko sợ đám cưới =)), ko sợ/ghét con nít :@) hehe.

Thì tự nhiên thấy cuộc sống thiệt là thú vị hay ho. Thật đó.

Like I said, sometimes I think Life is so cute in some way :)

2. Hơn tuần rồi hong gặp bạn :@) lâu ngày hong gặp, gặp lại thấy bạn vẫn đẹp chai như xưa hahah
Tuần rồi bạn bỉu diễn lần đầu tiên mà hong cho mình đi coi, tại sợ =)) anw, hong bị bể show là đc gòi, lần đầu mà :D gonna be better soon.

Talking about lunch, Meryl was asking me sth about Arts canteen, but I totally had no idea

Rim: Maybe I shouldn't say that I'm from Arts :|
Meryl: Maybe you are not from NUS at all /:)

3. The test is gonna be on today. A bit nervous, a bit excited. I'm gonna come early. I don't know. I think I really like this.
No matter what you may say, no matter how you behave, what you think, what you feel about me, it doesn't affect the fact that I really like this.

tình tang

“thi thoảng thấy Rìm buồn an nhiên lắm, cái buồn bình yên, nhưng thi thoảng, thấy cái buồn đó khẽ rơi vào thinh không như tiếng thìa chạm vào thành cốc”

Buồn cũng sơ sơ thôi, “cái buồn khẽ rơi vào thinh không” vậy đó mà. Lặng lặng, an nhiên. Ơ hờ và thờ ơ như 1 điều đã biết trước, như là thấu hiểu. Hiểu rằng ko fải điều gì mình muốn cũng thành sự thật.
Thì như vậy sẽ đỡ hơn.

some quick updates

Recently I blog less (yes, though it's still a lot, it's less, ppl). Don't get all the comments like I do with FB, so I get bored sometimes haha :">

Also because I was getting busier at work (surprising huh? :)) ) and my laptop at home sucks :|

So, this is some updates:

1. Quoted:

A: I think I'm falling for him.

Rim: Which one?

Đang casually chatting:

B: Sao rồi?

Rim: 1. blah blah

Rim: 2. About Oz. Oz làm sao đây? T_T chưa có topic

B: từ từ, tuần này chưa cần lắm

Rim: uh. Với lại, 2.b) Vụ cái banner sao?

Rim: mèng, dạo này làm scientist, nói chuyện cũng có đánh số =))

2. Hôm bữa đi West Mall với Linh. Mình thì đang xìu xìu (dạo này mình hay xìu :|) Hai đứa đi ăn xong vô toilet rửa tay.

Mèng.

Mình thiệt tình là chưa bao giờ thấy ai sấy tay với vẻ mặt hớn hở vui sướng như vậy. Chỉ là 1 việc nhỏ nhặt, chỉ là 1 thứ nhỏ nhặt. Nó đút cái tay vô hand dryer với 1 vẻ hí hửng vui thích như thể sấy tay là 1 trò chơi vô cùng thú vị và hay ho. Nó đưa tay qua lại cho gió thổi phù phù những giọt nước ở trên tay, cười thích thú.

Rồi mình chợt tự hỏi, những thứ nhỏ như vậy cũng có thể đem lại cho người ta niềm vui lớn như vậy sao?

3. Ozstudio already has 116 fans :) Keep it up guys :D

I saw some strange nicks in the fan list and try clicking them. It returns 0 mutual friends.

What does it mean, guys?

Meaning that, Ozstudio has gone beyond our friend circle...

haiz

1. I'm a bit disappointed, you know?
Are you the same you? Yes. But how come didn't I see all these before?
Maybe I'm just too harsh. Maybe there's really no choice for you, and this is ur last resort. But you don't have to say all that for me to help you, do you know it?
I don't really mind it so much to help, but listening to all those stuffs makes me feel uneasy.

Haiz.

2. Been trying to ignore myself n my own feelings. Ignore! Ignore!!!!

haiz

Messed up a lot of things.

Always so ignorant, so careless, so absent-minded, so forgetful, so inconsiderate!!!!

Cannot do anything properly :(

but I cannot run away :|

:|

tức quá mà phát khóc luôn :|

...

1. Scanning the headlines on the news...

Those words that I saw quite a lot recently are:

- dead
- death tolls
- typhoon
- earth quake
- tsunami

2. "I think from now on I will only see you in occasional lunches"
---> =((

then have to remember to ask me out for lunch whenever possible, ok?
I had fun talking to you 'bout all the stupid stuffs. Laughed a lot =) Enjoy listening to your funny thoughts, hehe.

3.Haiz.

Cần quá nhiều nhận thức và dũng cảm để sống một cuộc sống thực sự trong thế giới này... (Phan Việt)

Why does living is so tough?
It's okay to survive, but much harder to really live fully.
Pearl just passed me some link.
How to learn to ignore yourself, your own fear, your own need to feel secured?

Jeez, I started to think too much I guess. T_T

:((

Đau quá aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa
đi cà nhắc lun :(((((((((

wasn't so bad yesterday, but it got worse

đau quá :(( huhu hic hic hu hu

especially when climbing stairs :(( now cannot even walk normally

dot dot dot

1. I think if you want to do sth really well, you will need sth like a motivation.

Think I'm having one...

2. Mỗi tuần 2 lần về muộn. Hầu như mỗi tuần 2 lần đều về với nỗi buồn phủ ngang mặt như 1 lớp mây mù mà mình không thèm vén lên, cứ để nó đó, mịt mờ cả mặt mày. Buồn hiu. Thở ra nỗi buồn mỏng manh mà mêng mang như khói. Cho nên vừa nói chuyện mà trước mặt mình cứ thoang thỏang phảng phất hương buồn.

Cứ thế, mỗi tuần 2 lần, đều đặn như vậy. Tuần 2 lần buồn. Rồi sẽ quen. Và coi đó như 1 phần cuộc sống. Hi hi. :P

3. đi ngủ.

random updates

1. Yesterday I walked in the lift together with an auntie. She looked at my shirt for a while, then asked: "Is it NUS? the university?"
"Yes", I smiled.
"Oh", she looked surprised. "You look so small. Like secondary student"

Er, I didnt know what else to do other than smiling back. Can I consider it as a good thing to hear? After all, everyone wants to stay young. Though this time is like, too young. Secondary student :| Is it a bit too much? :|
Remember that time Meryl asked me about how District 9 was rated

Me: I don't know. I guess there should be some restriction, coz of all the disturbing scenes. But they didn't check my IC :|
Meryl: But don't you look like kids? :))
Me: er...

2. I'm not a handphone person. I don't bring it with me all the time. Sometimes in the office, I just leave it on my desk and go out for water. Or leaving it at home when I go for dinner.
And within 2 days, I saw 5 missed calls on such occasions. Five. No less. My office mates/house mates must have been so upset.

But, looking at the caller's name, I felt relieved that I didnt bring my phone with me.

I'm not playing hard to get. I'm not playing any complicated mind game. I'm not testing your patience, or mine, or whoever.
This is as simple as it is: I just won't pick up, I don't want to talk.

Even if my phone were with me at that time, you know what I would do. I would just simply reject the call.

I'm not being harsh. I just think I shouldn't waste your time (mine is plenty, so I'm not afraid of wasting mine, haha). So I want to give your a clearer answer. That's it.

Hope you would get over it soon.

3. Got the club's Tshirt.
I've always been wearing the smallest size. Except for kid's clothes. Yes, I did buy them for me to wear, but that's beside the point :-w
The point is: I SHOULD HAVE ASKED FOR XS SHIRT, NOT S!!!!!!!!!!!!
I didn't know there's XS size, so I ordered S. But this size is still too big for me :(( Looks like a dress when I wear it. I should never believe the Size tag of unisex clothes T_T

4. Congrats on getting in the summer program :P

5. Donated $15 for Ketsana's victims.
Meaning I'm left with $50.15 in my bank account.
With $20 in cash :@)
No worries, though.

6. A lil bit worried about my health. Sore throat again. Didn't go to PGP because of that :| huhu (I want to try the food, the food, the food :(( ). Coughing non-stop. I guess I has underestimated the cold last week. Please don't come back :(( I'm scared now.

But I seemed to gain a lil tiny bit of weight, yay! :D It's 38.5 kg!
Mom was really happy to hear that, she never trusted me in taking care of myself. Cannot blame her, though :))

Yesterday An also commented that I looked a bit FATTER!!! :)) I guess not many girls are so happy as me when hearing that. Hi' hi'.

7. Muscle ache :| From the shoulder to the arm to the thigh to the knees. Don't know why but even my feet hurt a bit :|

:D

Linh just helped me to send the Macbook pro back to Vietnam for my friend.

After clearing all my stuffs in the laptop, I copied for her 1 episode of Flash Forward. It was good, I wanted her to enjoy it.

I also left her some words in a note in My Document folder. Wanted to record sth like a msg for her and left it there, too, but this stupid Macbook doesn't allow me to do that without downloading a seperate app. I didn't want to install anything in her laptop, even YM and VLC was not installed, so I gave up 3:-o

Those are nothing much, really. Just some crappy note, some nonsense words,...

But I like to think about how surprised she will be when seeing my files inside :P Sometimes, just a small change makes a big difference. When she receives the laptop, it will be like no other ordinary Macbook.

Coz it comes with the Pilot episode of Flash Forward and two document files.
Coz it comes with little surprises.
Coz it comes from me.

:|

you know what? Sometimes you have to accept the fact that you cannot expect to have everything you want.

:D

Sometimes I want to say this:
"sometimes life is so cute."

~ Rim ~

tháng 10

1. Tháng 10 xanh. Tháng 10 mờ mù mịt những khói, mà sao tháng 10 trong lòng vẫn xanh.

Now that September ended, I woke up.
I always find the starts of the months fascinating. Because they are, after all, the starts of sth new.

October - the month of changes. And here I am, waiting for them to happen. I'm ready, and eager to see them.

2. I won't pick up ur calls. Sorry, but you have to see that this doesn't work. You are really too selfish, you know?
I've always tried to put myself in others' position to try understand. And I've been asking myself, what if I were you? Would I want to be treated like that?

And this time, no answer. Because I will never behave the way you do.
You never try to understand my feelings. Instead, you asked me to do things that you know very well that I don't want to do.

I'm tired of having to try to be nice.
Enough doing what I don't want to.
And I don't want to talk to you. At least until I could see that you've changed.


3. I love to sit by the window on the bus. Especially in the morning. With the sun shining above me, warmly.

4. deleted

5. Long time no see :@) you've been quite busy, so I tried not to borther you. I guess you still follow my blog regularly, so I used it as a way to update about my life. But I don't have much idea about how your life has been :-??
no matter what, I know you are capable. hi`. Just hang in there, ok?